Part of the reason it wipes me out so bad though, is because what is so great about people is that they are libel to change and evolution... and that ends up meaning they're not reliable. You can't ever ALWAYS count on someone, because people son't stay stagnant (we don't want them to), they GROW, and that induces change all around them. But, even good changes can be painful for the people who are in their immediate sphere of influence...aka, softies or tender hearts like me, because a lot of times that change means that people leave my little sphere. This can be happy (like if someone gets married, or leaves my ward for a new job or school, etc...), and it can be sad (like if a friendship drifts apart because of differing beliefs or priorities), and it can even be both happy and sad simultaneously.
Sometimes I feel like this has happened in my life waaaaaay more than it should... And in all honesty, I have been wondering lately if I will ever be able to rely on anyone.
Now don't get me wrong, I am so INCREDIBLY blessed to be surrounded by wonderful, uplifting, loving people, but the pace of life these days is very unsettled, and constantly moving, and I feel very often, that nothing lasts very long, And people always seem to leave.
I was thinking about this today and feeling ridiculously sorry for myself, when a friend's experienced popped into my mind. He'd been confused by someone's lack of sincerity and commitment to him, when there was a lesson in church about how we make promises to Heavenly Father to follow commandments, but then we "don't have time" to read our scriptures, say our prayers, etc... And suddenly I realized that while I was whining about people giving up on our relationship or friendship because they got too busy or distracted by other things I was doing that to my Father in Heaven.
Now I acknowlege that I'm endlessly flawed, and so I don't even, AT ALL, expect the people around me to be perfect--especially not perfect, RELIABLE friends, because goodness know I. Am. NOT!!! But, even when we're all hopelessly flawed, I can always, ALWAYS, rely, lean on, believe in, count on, depend on my Heavenly Father and my Savior Jesus Christ. Their love is endless and perfect. And they won't EVER give up on anyone.
"Cleave unto charity, which is the greatest of all, for ALL THINGS MUST FAIL--but Charity is the pure love of Christ, and IT ENDURETH FOREVER; and whoso is found possessed of it at the last day, it shall be well with him."
So if you feel alone or abandoned or deeply disappointed by someone you used to be able to depend on, just know that you're NOT alone; you're NEVER abandoned. And don't EVER stop loving the people around you for ANY reason. Because just like you need love, EVERYONE needs love love. EVERYONE. (I mean, come on, even the Super Bowl half time show told us to BELIEVE IN LOVE... and we should always listen to anything associated with Beyoncé...)
