Why yes, yes I do.

I love my life.  It's FULL, ALL THE TIME, with astounding people and opportunities.

Sometimes though,

I just wish I had a husband and babies.

Let's be honest for a minute.

Well here's a wee story about that.  The other day I was having a little chat with one of my bosses.  It was a serious chat about business.  He was filling me in on buisnessy-type issues and giving me updates.  He asked for my feedback.  He was very polite and professional.  At one point, he, in a very buisness-y way, asked about my plans for the future in regards to my schedule.

But then, he caught me off guard.

Still with a manner of professionalism, but now with a bit of a twinkle in his eye, he said, "I mean, I know you really want to fall in love and have babies..." and finished with something to the effect of "but for now you're going forward with other things...." (or some statement like that).

Then he flashed me a big grin.

And not even a facetious one, but a genuine one.

A bit of a smile that made light of a potentially uncomfortable subject, but also said,

"It's okay, I get it."

Now, I work really rather hard,

to fill my head with different thoughts

other than thoughts that dwell on things I don't currently have.

Thoughts such as:

Would I ever have chosen to do this  if I was married and had kids right now?

Look at what I've accomplished that I didn't even realize I ever wanted to!

I could go do that ?! I never even thought about that!!

(Being single and 24 is actually kind of rad.)

I'm also working very hard to take action on these thoughts too.

So my day-to-day existence is very much founded on that thought process.

But,

what my boss said that day kind of pulled the rug out from under me,

because,

well,

my boss is right.

I really  just want to fall in love and have babies.

In fact, sometimes I want it so bad, it hurts.

So here's a random thank you to you Mr Boss-man,

really.

It's an unexpectedly wonderful feeling,

that someone out there gets,

that despite all the things I'm involved with,

and trying hard to accomplish,

and the genuine smile on my face,

and honest gratitude and love for my current life,

the greatest desire of my heart is still to be

a wife and mother.

And without prodding me to get married ASAP,

you're simply cool with it.

thank you.

so much.

What a random blessing huh?

This could have been awkward,

and could have been 20 seconds of my day that meant nothing,

but I'm pretty sure what it actually did,

was remind me that I'm always being looked out for,

and this random 20 seconds

was precisely what my heart was in need of.

Tender mercies are rather tailored to our individual needs and personalities...

wouldn't you agree?

Grateful for:

My fabulous life as a single 24 year old;

a ticket to NYC in  days,

and also to see Newsies on Broadway.

I should never EVER complain right?!!!

List of Twenty Four: Things I love about being a "grown up"

Being a "grown up" is the best.  Now, I feel as though I should use this term "grown up" loosely as I still treasure (and usually am the one perpetuating in the children and adults around me), childhood.  I live for opportunities to use my imagination and strive to appreciate my life with a child-like wonder... but I also really love some things about being a "grown up"...

1. The updated, wiser version of a peanut butter and jelly sandwich; my favorite, delicious, gluten free flax bread, 'smart choice' peanut butter, and agave nectar... It's nice for my taste buds to enjoy such childhood-delicacies, but to also have gained the wisdom to know that I'm putting foods into my body that will make it very happy as well.
2. A degree in Child Development with a minor in Art that gives me a licence for the rest of my life to get lost in a stack of children's books on a regular basis, and have a legitamate excuse.
3. Dating men instead of boys.
4. Dates to places like art museums.
5.Having smart and cultured and wise and adventurous adult friends.
6. My friends having babies.
7. Being an adult daughter and sister and granddaughter.  It's suuuper fun!!
8. Being invited to the adult table when I go to Grandma CC's for dinner.
9. Updated taste buds... mmmm sushi....
10. Owning a kitchen aid.
11. My own little carefully collected library of DVD's.
12. My Toyota Corolla named Eleanor Rigby.  I LOVE her.
13. Traveling. Scary and stressful as a kid... soooo fun as an adult.
14. Kids thinking I know all.  (As I am 24, clearly my wisdom is without bounds!)
15. NOT being a teenager.
16. A new found appreciation for my womanly curves.
17. A few years under my belt spent creating a personal style.
20. A sense of gumption to be myself in my style, personality and relationships gained through the experiences I've had transitioning from childhood to adulthood.
19. The fact that high heels are acceptable almost all the time.
20. Responsibilities.  It's a wonder to be in charge of the aspects of your life; it's a whole mess of opportunities to create that I never anticipated!
11. It's cool to talk about babies and baking and decorating your house.
22. Visiting Teaching (who would've thought when I was in YW??)
23. the Temple
24. RELIEF SOCIETY!! My fave!


Also Grateful for: A bounteous number of wonderful cousins in my life. Like Brandon who is just the greatest and headed off to med school, and who I got to see a few weeks ago! I love this pic from when we got to go out to lunch! (Also, my wonderful Californian cousins who I got to see last week, and congrats to sweet Summer Marie on the news of her baby GIRL due in the fall!!) I am sooo blessed to know them!!